Samye Day 10

9:14 a.m.
Unremitting rain this morning kept me lying in the sleeping back till I thought it must be about eleven. 7:20 a.m.

I had a dream last night about going for a carry out. I went right across the country and got on a ferry and island where the off-licenses were still open, then I had a lot of trouble getting back on the ferry with the booze. Nice officials got me back on the ferry, but they took some of the bottles of whisky, etc. Of course, I don't drink whisky. Took me ages to get back and I was skint then. So I don't think it was a pro-booze dream!

The whole temple is getting used today and tomorrow for initiations. This makes meditating in there a wee bit difficult, but I will persevere. I'm now looking forward to seeing how I get on in the hut next week and in the lobby. I should notice changes. Last night the meditations in the temple were getting hot alright.

I had an inner heat experience on 6th April 2003. This was only a couple of months after I took refuge and I assumed I'd be drying off wet blankets in the bollock naked icefields in no time. Even with the ecstasies and whatnot, there has been not that much heat. What till I get the heat, eh? Just wait.

I think I now understand what Tsongkhapa says when he says you're going to hell when you get the heat and don't have the channels properly visualised. You'd fry your butt off, Jack. So you would.

I've left my mobile phone in the tent and miss it so much. I use it for the time and photies! Dearie me! Attachment, attachment, attachment! I'll have to get some attachments for it!