Sunday 2:10 p.m.
Don't know why I always feel exhausted when I get back from the Samye Ling, but I do. I'm now going up to the allotment to see how many weeds have grown in my absence!
Sunday, 19 July 2009
Samye Ling Photies
Sunday 2:10 p.m.
Don't know why I always feel exhausted when I get back from the Samye Ling, but I do. I'm now going up to the allotment to see how many weeds have grown in my absence!
Samye Going Home Today Day
Sunday 9:14 a.m.
The Domestic Bliss took the 1000 Armed Chenrezig Initiation yesterday. Om Mani Padme Hung.
Have to go!
The Domestic Bliss took the 1000 Armed Chenrezig Initiation yesterday. Om Mani Padme Hung.
Have to go!
Saturday, 18 July 2009
Samye Day 11
9:33 a.m.
The Domestic Bliss will be here by lunchtime. So I'll be heading back to the fleshpots tomorrow. Sometimes I've had a few problems coming out of these retreats so this will be a good way to do it. I feel totally settled in this routine now.
I will have fantastic meditations today. So I might as well go and have them!!
The Domestic Bliss will be here by lunchtime. So I'll be heading back to the fleshpots tomorrow. Sometimes I've had a few problems coming out of these retreats so this will be a good way to do it. I feel totally settled in this routine now.
I will have fantastic meditations today. So I might as well go and have them!!
Friday, 17 July 2009
Samye Day 10 Two!
1:30 p.m.
The meditations today got better and better again! The temple was chock a block this morning with folk sometimes jabbering and wanes wailing and whatnot, but it didn't really stop me just sitting there getting warm.
People were taking refuge with Dr Akong and I felt a bit emotional during the service.
But he's giving this wee talk before he asks folk to come on down and line up to get the hair cutting, etc., and before he's any way finished, this wee blond kid of about five or six who is in the row of cushions in front of me, which is quite near the back so I can zone out, sets off for the front. His dad starts trailing him, carrying the kata (white scarf), and the kid reaches the throne/big seat Dr Akong is sitting on just as he finishes the wee talk. First. Auspicious, or what? Some cats got it and some cats aint!
His dad used to be monk here. Shiva and I met him on Holy Isle about 1994/5.
After the break, I went into the tent to meditate since there was going to be a Medicine Buddha empowerment and I've already ... I wanted to see how it would be in the tent anyway. Brilliant. Warmth arising; radiance, bliss and rapture; better openings at every chakra. This is the bliss! This is the bliss! This is the bliss!!
They're doing a Green Tara empowerment this afternoon, so I might as well go for that, eh?
9:30 p.m.
What a wonderful day! The last meditation was so, so good! Today I didn't have a shower and I didn't go for a run; a double first. The Green Tara empowerment was brilliant and the meditations all day, especially the last one, were ... I know it can get better, but it's hard to see how. Tommorrow the Domestic Bliss will be here by lunchtime and that's really the end of that. On Sunday night it will be hello to the drunken bum again. Oh, no!
The meditations today got better and better again! The temple was chock a block this morning with folk sometimes jabbering and wanes wailing and whatnot, but it didn't really stop me just sitting there getting warm.
People were taking refuge with Dr Akong and I felt a bit emotional during the service.
But he's giving this wee talk before he asks folk to come on down and line up to get the hair cutting, etc., and before he's any way finished, this wee blond kid of about five or six who is in the row of cushions in front of me, which is quite near the back so I can zone out, sets off for the front. His dad starts trailing him, carrying the kata (white scarf), and the kid reaches the throne/big seat Dr Akong is sitting on just as he finishes the wee talk. First. Auspicious, or what? Some cats got it and some cats aint!
His dad used to be monk here. Shiva and I met him on Holy Isle about 1994/5.
After the break, I went into the tent to meditate since there was going to be a Medicine Buddha empowerment and I've already ... I wanted to see how it would be in the tent anyway. Brilliant. Warmth arising; radiance, bliss and rapture; better openings at every chakra. This is the bliss! This is the bliss! This is the bliss!!
They're doing a Green Tara empowerment this afternoon, so I might as well go for that, eh?
9:30 p.m.
What a wonderful day! The last meditation was so, so good! Today I didn't have a shower and I didn't go for a run; a double first. The Green Tara empowerment was brilliant and the meditations all day, especially the last one, were ... I know it can get better, but it's hard to see how. Tommorrow the Domestic Bliss will be here by lunchtime and that's really the end of that. On Sunday night it will be hello to the drunken bum again. Oh, no!
Samye Day 10
9:14 a.m.
Unremitting rain this morning kept me lying in the sleeping back till I thought it must be about eleven. 7:20 a.m.
I had a dream last night about going for a carry out. I went right across the country and got on a ferry and island where the off-licenses were still open, then I had a lot of trouble getting back on the ferry with the booze. Nice officials got me back on the ferry, but they took some of the bottles of whisky, etc. Of course, I don't drink whisky. Took me ages to get back and I was skint then. So I don't think it was a pro-booze dream!
The whole temple is getting used today and tomorrow for initiations. This makes meditating in there a wee bit difficult, but I will persevere. I'm now looking forward to seeing how I get on in the hut next week and in the lobby. I should notice changes. Last night the meditations in the temple were getting hot alright.
I had an inner heat experience on 6th April 2003. This was only a couple of months after I took refuge and I assumed I'd be drying off wet blankets in the bollock naked icefields in no time. Even with the ecstasies and whatnot, there has been not that much heat. What till I get the heat, eh? Just wait.
I think I now understand what Tsongkhapa says when he says you're going to hell when you get the heat and don't have the channels properly visualised. You'd fry your butt off, Jack. So you would.
I've left my mobile phone in the tent and miss it so much. I use it for the time and photies! Dearie me! Attachment, attachment, attachment! I'll have to get some attachments for it!
Unremitting rain this morning kept me lying in the sleeping back till I thought it must be about eleven. 7:20 a.m.
I had a dream last night about going for a carry out. I went right across the country and got on a ferry and island where the off-licenses were still open, then I had a lot of trouble getting back on the ferry with the booze. Nice officials got me back on the ferry, but they took some of the bottles of whisky, etc. Of course, I don't drink whisky. Took me ages to get back and I was skint then. So I don't think it was a pro-booze dream!
The whole temple is getting used today and tomorrow for initiations. This makes meditating in there a wee bit difficult, but I will persevere. I'm now looking forward to seeing how I get on in the hut next week and in the lobby. I should notice changes. Last night the meditations in the temple were getting hot alright.
I had an inner heat experience on 6th April 2003. This was only a couple of months after I took refuge and I assumed I'd be drying off wet blankets in the bollock naked icefields in no time. Even with the ecstasies and whatnot, there has been not that much heat. What till I get the heat, eh? Just wait.
I think I now understand what Tsongkhapa says when he says you're going to hell when you get the heat and don't have the channels properly visualised. You'd fry your butt off, Jack. So you would.
I've left my mobile phone in the tent and miss it so much. I use it for the time and photies! Dearie me! Attachment, attachment, attachment! I'll have to get some attachments for it!
Thursday, 16 July 2009
Samye Day 9 Two
4:09 p.m.
A monky boy came and sat right beside me at lunch although I was wearing my headphones to listen to the Dhammapada. Dead sociable me. So I took them off to have a chat, but it turns out that he's from Tibet and doesn't have much English. But I asked him if he'd done a three year retreat. He said he'd done a four year one while he was still in Tibet. He asked if I'd done one and I burst out laughing.
I told him my name was Brian Wilson and wrote down the address of my castle in Portobello. He said he'd come and see me and I said he'd be very welcome as I had a nice hut for him out the back.
He had about a third as much as me on his plate for lunch. Even in this degenerat age, it is possible to be cool.
My lungs are in the best state they've been in for ages. It's all the running and vase breathing, Jack!
I've spotted the nun from the Monday night meditations. I don't really want to speak to folk. I really would rather not.
My meditations this morning were excellent, but I'm still not getting much heat. When you've been sitting beside some joe who's done four years in retreat ... well ... I'm away for a walk down the river before going back to the temple since it isn't chucking it down for once!
A monky boy came and sat right beside me at lunch although I was wearing my headphones to listen to the Dhammapada. Dead sociable me. So I took them off to have a chat, but it turns out that he's from Tibet and doesn't have much English. But I asked him if he'd done a three year retreat. He said he'd done a four year one while he was still in Tibet. He asked if I'd done one and I burst out laughing.
I told him my name was Brian Wilson and wrote down the address of my castle in Portobello. He said he'd come and see me and I said he'd be very welcome as I had a nice hut for him out the back.
He had about a third as much as me on his plate for lunch. Even in this degenerat age, it is possible to be cool.
My lungs are in the best state they've been in for ages. It's all the running and vase breathing, Jack!
I've spotted the nun from the Monday night meditations. I don't really want to speak to folk. I really would rather not.
My meditations this morning were excellent, but I'm still not getting much heat. When you've been sitting beside some joe who's done four years in retreat ... well ... I'm away for a walk down the river before going back to the temple since it isn't chucking it down for once!
Samye Day 9
9:11 a.m.
I had a weird dream last night. I was lying in a hospital bed at the kind of disco party for folk from my jobbie. I asked how someone was.
This very nice woman, younger than I am, was given the black spot a couple of months ago. I've been dedicating meditations, etc., to her though I suspect this might not do her any good, but it might be doing me some. Anyway, last I heard she was on chemotherapy.
So I leans out of the hospital bed to ask this man about her. It turns out it's her husband, whom I've never seen. He says I won't have heard what with me being in the hospital, but she'd just passed away. I could see her son moving by looking grief stricken and I wakened up.
Four in the morning as well. So I sat up and did some juju for her just in case. Shit! Who'd want to be clairvoyant? You'd be better off getting it by email!
Tai Situ said having any control in the bardo would be like being given a pen and a piece of paper then being chucked out of a jet plane and being expected to write a four line poem before you hit the ground.
In the stage I'm at, I won't be any better off than you, Jack!
"Them that dies (when they dies) will be the lucky ones!" Long John Silver.
Weather crap. Meditations brilliant. Everything else same old, same old. But what a day I'm going to have!!!
I had a weird dream last night. I was lying in a hospital bed at the kind of disco party for folk from my jobbie. I asked how someone was.
This very nice woman, younger than I am, was given the black spot a couple of months ago. I've been dedicating meditations, etc., to her though I suspect this might not do her any good, but it might be doing me some. Anyway, last I heard she was on chemotherapy.
So I leans out of the hospital bed to ask this man about her. It turns out it's her husband, whom I've never seen. He says I won't have heard what with me being in the hospital, but she'd just passed away. I could see her son moving by looking grief stricken and I wakened up.
Four in the morning as well. So I sat up and did some juju for her just in case. Shit! Who'd want to be clairvoyant? You'd be better off getting it by email!
Tai Situ said having any control in the bardo would be like being given a pen and a piece of paper then being chucked out of a jet plane and being expected to write a four line poem before you hit the ground.
In the stage I'm at, I won't be any better off than you, Jack!
"Them that dies (when they dies) will be the lucky ones!" Long John Silver.
Weather crap. Meditations brilliant. Everything else same old, same old. But what a day I'm going to have!!!
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