Gliding Through

Wednesday 9:40 p.m.
Fallen leaves cover the ground now. The allotments are on the right. I went there today and meditated, dug up some tatties.

The meditations today were fine and developing okay. I must have put in seven hours today. When I wasn't meditating ... for some reason the nicotine withdrawals were hardly noticeable. The last time I had to do this (at the beginning of the school term)I was crabbit for a week at least, but I don't know what's going on just now. Maybe it was the three bottles of home brew last night.

But I would not say I was having a wonderful time. It's like heavy training. You don't appreciate it till you've done it. In the meantime just do it.

I did waken up today feeling happy again.

I did some writing stuff after being at the allotment. I'm skimming through it really. Actually, for what it is there's not much point in totally exerting myself. Don't really have to. Changing it a bit. Funny how things have changed in the twenty years since I wrote it last. You can't smoke in offices anymore or any work places, not in Chilly Jockoland anyway.

The old, toothless one and I ran up the hills tonight. I'm pleased the way things are going, but I would not say I was delirious about it. Deferred gratification is bound to be a wee bit like that! Allah Akbar!